First blog in a very long time . I’ll figure this out 🤗

Dilemma

So I'm on a dating website...  I'm still not over my ex-husband and I have a wonderful older man who thinks I'm "gods gift" so what am I doing???  I was single for 7 years before I married my ex and that turned out to be a nightmare.  I need to reconcile in my mind that I'm not meant to be in a relationship - I'm just not good at it.  I should go back to the therapist and delve into why I'm so bad at relationships.  I think I'm a good mother, sister, friend but fail at the wife/girlfriend role.

Only Tuesday

Everyday I go to work and start out the day positively -it lasts until about 10:00am - boo hoo :-(((  I have a job that I don't like anymore but I'm trapped.  I'm nearing retirement and it pays well and the job market sucks.  I'm stuck!

TGIF

Not a great week but today was the best of the bunch.  I've figured out that I have options and so don't feel quite so smothered and trapped as I did before.

Life

I feel completely trapped by my life at the moment.  People tell me how lucky I am to have a job - and I am - but that only makes me feel more trapped.  I HATE my job and yet feel like I have no alternatives and I'll never be able to retire.  UGGHH!!!  When my lease is up next year, I could move - look for another job and start my life over again...it gives me some hope :-))

Back to work...

I so enjoyed my week off from work and it took only one day back at work to feel frustrated.  I know yesterday's word was Gratitude and I am thankful that I have a great job in a pitiful economy, but I wish I could feel happy to go to work - other than seeing some of the people I work with ((that are like family).  Instead, I feel jealous of the people that get to retire... I probably will never be able to do that :-(((

Word of the day...

...is Gratitude.  I'm so thankful for my wonderful friends and family.  Whenever I'm feeling down, I remind myself that I am one of the luckiest people in the world.